I don't know what's wrong with me lately. Sometimes, for no reason, i just want to breakdown and cry or maybe just scream into my pillow as loud as possible. Everyday going to school with a fake smile. God! Its just so difficult. Well, the good thing is i don't have to explain to people why i'm sad. Can reserve my energy for other important things. But today was exceptional. Maybe because Daniel didn't come to school, and he wasn't there to make me laugh. Well, not to say i didn't laugh. I just didn't laugh as much as before. School ended very slow. I tried to smile, but really tak boleh tahan. So to not let anyone see my face, I lied on the table for the last 2 periods in class with hand covering my face. As usual, I sat at the corner alone. Eugene kept asking me why was i so moody. Every time he asked, i just shook my head. Sigh. When school ended, i was sweating like some pig and I wanted to get out of school as fast as possible. Cause i didn't want to bump into him. Seeing him only makes me more unhappy. At home, I spend almost half my day pacing the floor wondering why he apologized to me last night. After wondering for sometime, my head actually went to the other side. Got me wondering, how did i ever fell for him in the first place? What is it about him that attracts me so much? In the evening, he looked for me on facebook. Hah, after four days, finally. Took him long enough. Well, we didn't actually chat. Only one sentence from each of us. Then the end. Sigh. Its been three months, and i think this is really going no where. So, this feeling i have towards him should stop before it gets worst. If i continue like this, it'll be harder for me to let go. I really don't want to go through the same thing again. Because of that someone, it took me almost more than 1 year to get my heart mend together and i'm not going to get it broken again. I'm not gonna be that stupid girl that gets her heart broken more than twice :D I'm going to stop now.
DANIEL WONG CHUN YEE WHERE ARE YOU? You chose the wrong day to not come to school. Are you sick or not feeling well? Or just plain lazy? Ohh, or you went for Qing Ming? Speaking of which. I want to go back to Johor now for Qing Ming. But I don't know whether my parents wants to or not. I'm going out to watch movie with Jiayan tomorrow. I need to get my mind off somethings.