It's 5pm now. But staying in this room just makes it feel like it's already midnight. I feel like I am trapped in a box every time I come in here. I always feel so pressured. If I had a choice, I would not even step foot in here. But then again, do I? Is there another place for me? Frankly speaking, this is the only way I can get things done right and fast. Yes. Solitude. For me to be isolated and locked in this stupid square room.
Maybe we all find solitude suffering when we were young. But what do you think about it now? It sometimes just appear to be delightful, no? We all need it once in a while. Have you ever been so worried about something that you ended up with a terrible headache? Felt sick to your stomach? Or had trouble sleeping? Come to think of it, I deal with most of my problems here in this room. I close my eyes and take deep breaths here. I deal with awkward phone calls here. I eat here. I stress here. I study here. I cry here. And I sometimes sleep here. This is my study room.
Don't get me wrong. My stress phase is not here, YET. But it's coming.
Lately my tummy haven't been being really good to me. I think it hates me. But I do not remember feeding her anything gross or disgusting. It just always like to attack me out of the blues. Just like the other day while I was in UTAR.
I was walking happily when suddenly my tummy just sneak attack me and guess what I did? The second it started to hurt, I quickly squatted with my arms wrapping my tummy real tight. A girl just turned over and saw me, showed me the 'omg wtf is she doing' face and walked off a bit faster. I think I frightened her. lol. But anyway, it hurts so much and have been happening so frequently, I can hardly feel it now. I think I have officially numbed the pain. Well, if that's even possible.
Oh yeah. Actually, I am here to upload a very stupid collage.
Well, I just wasted half an hour of my time blogging about irrelevant things. I am so lifeless I think I need to slap myself. I have 4 beautiful words for you people who are reading this. Click - My - Nuffnang - Ads. Okay 2 more! THANK - YOU :) Till next time.