So I've ceremoniously completed my Foundation in Science in UTAR. Yes, I said ceremoniously. I didn't do nearly as good as I should, relatively bad maybe. My perspective of course. I feel as though I am on the edge of failure, failing at every opportunity I get to actually enter a good university.
It all started a year ago, I decided to study UTAR's FIS program and then later on continue with a degree in Mechatronic Engineering there too. Which was a ultimate stupidity. I mean, I don't even have the interest in doing stuffs like that. But more about that later.
And so after an entire year of being strained and stressed out, I've finished it. During that whole three semesters I already know deep down that I am not cut out of engineering. My physics is not bad, but neither is it good. It is just average. Mediocre. And you know what? I really do not think doing and being mediocre is good enough to get me that degree. And judging by the percentage of UTAR Engineering dropouts and failures, I really could not imagine what would happen to me. Am I just scaring myself? What do you think?
Nonetheless, after striking out engineering from my list, I looked towards BSc degrees. I thought to myself, I'd pick Biology over Physics hands down. But what was my barrier this time? I am not allowed many options as I did not take Biolody in my SPM. So I picked just pure chemistry for my degree. All I have to do now is just to get the transfer form and wait for approval. And hell I was darn sure that the approval will be a success. Why you may ask? That is because a friend of mine is also in the same stream as me and doing this as her degree already. So three semesters passed. And my decision was made.
So a day after I got my results, I went back to UTAR to get the transfer done with. I went to the admission department and talked to the guy about my transfer. He took my results and information in and processed for about 50 seconds. He came back to me and said 'Sorry. You are not allowed to transfer.' I stoned there. I was speechless. I did not know what to do. I questioned him and informed him about my friend's stream and course. He gave me one last sentence to shut me up, he said to me 'You have no biology in your SPM certificate.'.
At that point in time, I knew that there was nothing else I could do.
I felt lost and indecisive I didn't know what else I could do. All I know is that I had to have my mind made up before classes commences. And that is in a week time. Which made things even more tense. After sobbing in the car for god knows how long. I decided to let go of UTAR and shop for some other university.
You know what? I completed my foundation with a cgpa of only 3.18. Most universities that offer the course that I want has a requirement of a minimum cgpa of 3.2 or even 3.5. Despite the fact that counselors, friends and even lecturers from all over tell me how hard is it to score well in UTAR, I believe otherwise. I have friends that score well in UTAR, so why can't I? I blame myself for not working hard enough and only aiming for an average grade in everything.
Later that day, my boyfriend brought me to MAHSA U. Had a talked with the counselors there, had them process my results and info, had a tour of the facilities there. And I got their acceptance letter to do a UK degree in Physiotherapy. This is absurd! I can get in to MAHSA's physiotherapy but not UTAR's!
My parents seem to be exceptionally affirmative of me doing this. They really are. I do not think it would be bold choice to go against their decision. But then again, I'm the one studying.
I do not know what else to say about it but you get the idea. Goodbye.