Sometimes, I sit down and wonder if I'm at the stage of my life where I expected to be years ago. To say the least, I am no where close to where I expected to be 10 years ago. Then again, I was 16 and the only relevant portrayal of a future is based on my mom's experience. She got married at 26 and had all of us & a wonderful life began.
Which brought me to always imagining myself with a loving husband, an amazing career, a house, some high returning investments and two kids while pregnant with the third at the age I'm at right now.
But of course, we grow, we change and we all tend to skew our goals and initiatives over the years. So again, am I satisfied with where I'm at, just by looking from two years back?
I guess I could do better. I feel like I'm still not on the verge of 'giving it my all' to be where I'm at right now. But not to undermine my own hardwork, I do feel that I have achieved a significant amount of recognition and success at this stage of my life. But is it enough or am I still underachieving.
Frankly speaking, during this pandemic and what happened last December, I'm truly happy and grateful to be alive and healthy with all my family members with me. The shock and all the restrictions really just puts you in that position whereby you only want one thing now, which is to be with your loved ones.
So for now, yes I am very contented with everything. Because everything could've been so much worse....
But it isn't. And I'm appreciative to that.